Valentines day!

YAY! my valentine was very sad because i only took a packet of chocolates from my refrigerator for him!

HAPPY NEW YEAR ! :D

#1 my mom is back from US! i'm gonna gain so so so much weight with all these!

#2 HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL !
actually, i didn't want to blog. but some meanie asked me to blog :( isn't that a torture? :P

oh, but this meanie right, he's quite nice. mayb the nicest of all. because,

he gave me the best christmas gift ever ! :D

he kinda surprised me! because i didn't know he could be so sweet ( by the way he gave it to me) HAHAHAHAHA . don't kill me!

i shall surprise you too!

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today!

finally, the end of showcase. hahaha

i really wish the weather could be more predictable.

i hope i can improve my piano skills bit by bit everyday.

finals are soon. hopefully i won't be lazy. i wanna nail every single paper! HAHAHAHAHA

can't wait for the next sem.

sociology, american civili, american popular music, english 2 and moral studies. here i come! (:

sigh.

i always ask myself.
do i deserve all this. it always feels like, i'm the one who's all alone.
when i needed someone, i can't have who i want. the one supposed to be there for me, is going way too far away from me.
though i'm used to it, but i still feel it all the time.
sometimes, you just don't know how much i need you.

what if I die

me and alicia had this very weird conversation in the car last week. she told me her scerets and said, some people must really know my secrets. what if i die. nobody truly know what happened.
then i told her, my blog is like my personal journal. but the reason that i hardly share things in my blog because, oh shit happens when it's too public. my blog were dead for long, one of the reasons is to keep readers away.

just had my muet test. and i was surprised that my college KD's campus is quiteee nice. we were kinda jakun that we kept taking pictures. that happened on the 13th of oct.

the walk way, nice place for dating.
there's a pool out of no where.
swimming pool.

and it looks like a hotel inside. lol
and the IT floor looks like a hospital. haha

mahesh, melody, denise and I were in the first group. :( and how was it, it was very bad for me.
i think i just lost the chance of getting band 4 (pass). even the first sentence, i said it wrongly.
and i really thank aaron daniel for sending us back to college. oh not forgetting lunch before that. ha. i had marketing midterms at 12. we were kinda late for the paper. and i went to the wrong examination hall. at first, i was kinda depressed because of muet. and thn, i after i took my marketing paper, i was really happy and excited ( somehow ) ahah. i was like WTF OMG. i didn't study and i can still answer the paper!

MELODY.

i watched THE SWITCH and the movie was all about sperm. lol .
i went to sungai long the next day with gary and i finally know how to play the violin!

i really hope i was appreciated.

we can try

i know things aren't quite like what they used to be .
oh and i can't wait long . it hurts too bad .

18th

it was quite a normal day for me on my 18th . i went to piano/college as usual. and play comp at home . but at least, i had a surprise in the BBQ party . (: and it was nice meeting new people there . (:

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he was sweet right ? YEAH I KNOW ! HAHAH .


thanks everyone for the night .

and thanks everyone for all the wishes ! (:

happy birthday mom , dad

it was my mom's birthday yesterday . me and my bro planned to surprise her . after drama, i called my brother up . and we went to get the cake and went to put it in my uncle's place . ha and we woke our dear cousin up . and she made a card for my mom ! (: so sweeeet of herr .

my cousin's just wake up face . haha

greentea from RT pastry .
the lady ruined the cake :(

sang birthday songs . and thank you to my uncle for helping me up with my new netbook . (: and thanks for all the trouble . hahah we went home around 9 . my pet sister and aunty florence bought us cake too ! hah its abit too much for us . so i drove to aunty florence house to deliver few slices of cake .

cake from my pet sister (:
don't you agree? RT pastry have nice and yummy cake . they look great .

sceret recipe cake from Aunty Florence.

and i just wished my dad happy birthday hours ago . and he said , he'll celebrate with us again when we go out . hopefully NO MORE CAKES hahahaha .

OH AND I HAVE MY NEW BABY . haha on my moms birthday . haha .

it looks like a typical BLACK HP netbook anyway . (:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM, DAD . (:

one Night

i think the amount of my pain receptors has increase. since i'm feeling more pain lately. things seems to be alright, to you. but it wasn't. how i wish you could eventually know how i feel. at least realize what i've been going through. i did alot for you. eventho you kept saying that you've given me alot. honestly, i can't feel it. i'm really sorry. but sometimes i still wonder, am i just someone that seems alot to you, but i'm actually nothing? I almost cried this afternoon, i teared actually, if u didn't notice. And now, sigh. things that i do, you just don't seem to know.

Oh well, and this might be funny. because if u happen to read this, i think you don't even know that this is actually for you.

oh well.

i am done with my midterm . it was FREAKING HARD . it was more like finals anyway . i think i'm gonna be very disappointed with i get my result . even if i'm free now . i have too many things to do . and i don't know where to start .

1. informative speech
2. persuasive speech ( i haven't started at all )
3. psychology presentation with alicia
4. quiz for public speaking
5. quiz for psychology. * which actually kills
6. AND start studying for finals !

other than that.

1. practice practice practice
2. clean my room (which gonna take me at least 1 day)


and ohhey Hewson ! (:

i don't care anymore . and you'll know what i'll do when i don't care about anything .