it's the first time i blog in my room .
and to you , i really don't know what can i tell you . you told me alot of things that i expected to hear . but it sounded fake at a point .
it just reminds me of a poem that i wrote for you last year .


When we broke up
You said you'd always love me
It's always the answer i hated .
As a friend

Always, you said we'd be friends soon
But soon, i realize you wanted nothing of me
Then i understood thats how it ends .

You said, " I feel awkward talking to you"
I guess it's always easier to lie
You finally told me that it hurts
I'll say the sorry for forcing you .

I guess it doesn't matter why we failed
Or why i love you after what you've done
I guess i have no choice but to accept my fate .

I could dream, i suppose
Forever, i could hope
There will not be any 'us', thats our destiny
So i wake up to reality .

I lied when i said i didn't love you
I lied
not because i wanted to
but because i love you
and i still do .

Maybe i've spent the last four years barking on the wrong tree
Maybe i've dreaming whats not meant to be
But i won't take you back
I already gave you everything, and i do not regret .




this is what i wrote for you a year ago . you said we'd be friends . we always acted like we were friends . but i don't think it feels we really are .
but i don't think thats gonna happen . you understood me the most . and i think you still understand me . and you know why is it so . not just me . it's both of us .
but whatever or how long it takes . i'll try . i'll try to make this happen .
and not to worry . you know i'm over you . just , it might take more time to be like REAL normal friends . i doubt you'll read my blog . but this is for you .

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this was taken when we were on the way to Morib . we were eating cadbury chocolates . some snacks before we start our trip . ha

i'm so gonna miss you Angeline . :(

she's leaving on the 31st . leaving to singapore to continue her studies .

went to the beach with Angie Koon Xfong and Eugene . we were quite lost when we arrived . ah we did't see any sands there . HAH . we wanted to make some sand castle .

these are some pictures . hah . oh we took alot of pictures . played with bubbles and kites . we definitely had fun . i made mocktail and i'm glad all of them liked it . (: we reach home around 9 . but it was quite a disappointment to see most of the lights are still on during earth hour . ah .

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oh hi after a long time .
i thought i would be blogging on the first day of my college . as i have promised my dear kawan hewson . hahah . but after all sort of feelings i have today .
i really feel like blogging now .

after so long . what am i doing now ?
i went for orientation last 26th and i'm starting my first class on the 29th . i'm doing ADP in HR management and psychology . anyways , for the first sem . my class would be only on mondays and thursday . how relaxing . (:

i went to the beach with few friends today . i shall post it tmr . along with the pictures .


i'm proud that i was in the band .
i saw sher hann's video . and i drop by her profile to see band photos . i regret for not staying in the band during the last year of high school . i couldnt believe that i actually quit . and i didn't try handling the pressure . being in a part of the band was the best thing that happened to me in high school . from the day i first play the flute . i already know that i'll stay in band till i leave the school . i'll grow with the band . but yeah . it didn't went like how i planned . i miss all of them there . and i'm stopping here .

oh ya , good luck yuan ping for her iu tmr . (:

i'm gonna start blogging back .
feeling so random .
why am i missing everything that happened long time ago . i miss alot of things .
went to mid valley today with my darlings . i'm glad they accompanied me . (:
thanks to the beloved for sending me there . (: