one Night

i think the amount of my pain receptors has increase. since i'm feeling more pain lately. things seems to be alright, to you. but it wasn't. how i wish you could eventually know how i feel. at least realize what i've been going through. i did alot for you. eventho you kept saying that you've given me alot. honestly, i can't feel it. i'm really sorry. but sometimes i still wonder, am i just someone that seems alot to you, but i'm actually nothing? I almost cried this afternoon, i teared actually, if u didn't notice. And now, sigh. things that i do, you just don't seem to know.

Oh well, and this might be funny. because if u happen to read this, i think you don't even know that this is actually for you.